this is one of the darkest corners of
这是互联网上最黑暗的角落之一，在这个
the internet a space where women calling
空间里，自称女性
themselves fem cells are posting extreme
细胞的女性发布了极端的
and sometimes violent content there's
、有时甚至是暴力的内容。有
jokes about killing all the men having a
笑话说，杀死所有患有瘟疫的男性，把
plague getting rid of them all
他们全部消灭掉，这很
disgusting mid what's MS lot of
恶心，
derogatory term for men I know that
对男性来说有很多贬义词。 我知道
incel misogyny broke out of the internet
forums and into the real world when
当 2014 年
Elliot Roger shot and killed six people
埃利奥特·罗杰 (Elliot Roger) 枪杀六人时，非自愿独身者厌女症从互联网论坛爆发并进入现实世界。
in 2014 tomorrow is the day of
Retribution
is there a genuine risk that fem cells
might go the same way in cells have
what's the darkest thing you've ever
你在其中见过的最黑暗的东西
seen in one of these oh my God I can't
哦天哪我
watch that I actually can't can't do
看不到我实际上不能做
this I want to shoot everyone of their
这件事我想
stuff with a BB gun I want to go inside
用BB枪射击他们的所有人我想进入
the fem cell Community to find out who
女性牢房 社区要找出
these women really are are they the
这些女性到底是谁，她们是女性中的
female equivalent of incels and just how
非自愿独身者吗？
extreme might they
[Music]
be if you start research SE ing the word
如果你开始研究“
fem cell it pops up all over the
女性细胞”这个词，她们[音乐]会有多极端，它会在互联网上弹出，
Internet there's fem cell book lists
有女性细胞书籍列表
there are fem cell Spotify playlists
fem cell Spotify 播放列表中
which is just loads of Lana Del re the
只有拉娜·德尔 (Lana Del) 的负载，
fem cell hashtag on Tik Tok has nearly a
Tik Tok 上的 fem cell 标签有近
billion views it feels like it's a real
十亿次浏览，感觉就像是一个真实的
identity that's quite ironic and
身份，相当讽刺和
self-deprecating and then you have this
自嘲，然后你就看到了
other end of the Spectrum which is a
频谱的另一端，那就是 一个
quite extreme mandry and these forums
相当极端的曼德里和这些论坛，
where people are discussing being a fem
人们正在讨论成为女性
cell on what that means and seeing it as
细胞意味着什么，并将其视为一种
quite an ideological
相当意识形态的
worldview it feels pretty dark in here
世界观，在这里感觉很黑暗，
as like post here saying I think all men
就像这里的帖子说我认为所有男人都
should start off in jail and prove their
应该从监狱开始并证明他们的
way out it just feels so much broader
出路感觉
than I'd first anticipated the first
比我最初预期的要广泛得多第一步
step is to try and get into some of the
是尝试进入一些
fem cell
fem cell
forums hey Ellie I've just got access to
论坛嘿艾莉我刚刚访问了
a Discord server which has got a few fem
一个 Discord 服务器，其中有一些 fem
cells and in cells in there okay so that
cells 并在 那里的单元格好吧，这样
takes me into a server and it looks like
我就进入了服务器，看起来
I'm on the holding page where I've got
我在等待页面上，我必须
to answer seven questions discord's
回答七个问题不和谐
essentially a modern day chat room where
本质上是一个现代聊天室，
people can have real time conversations
人们可以在其中与
with people in private servers and often
私人服务器中的人进行实时对话 通常，
you have to be invited into those
您必须被邀请进入这些
servers and accepted in order to have a
服务器并接受才能进行
chat it says this is a server for fem
聊天，它说这是女性细胞的服务器，
cells and in cells if you're a Nory
在细胞中，如果您是诺里人，
you'll be banned on site this is not a
您将被现场禁止，这不
place for you go back to Reddit and I'm
适合您 回到Reddit，我正在和
chatting to air ow so she says that
air ow聊天，所以她说她
she's been part of this community for 3
已经成为这个社区的一员三
to 4 years and she said she finds it
四年了，她说她发现
very comforting to have the fem cell
女性细胞这个
term almost as a security blanket I ask
术语几乎作为安全毯非常令人欣慰，我问
at what she means by that she said she's
在什么地方 她的意思是，她说她
had good and bad experiences most of the
有过好的和坏的经历，大部分
bad experiences usually because of
不好的经历通常是因为
incels she mentioned that she does have
非自愿者，她提到她确实
some distaste for men so I'm curious as
对男人有一些厌恶，所以我很好奇
to what that
is I'd really love to try and meet Al in
我真正想尝试和认识的是什么 Al 在
real life I feel like she's exactly who
现实生活中，我觉得她正是
I need to speak to to try and get my
我需要与她交谈的人，让我了解主题
head around what it means to be a themel
意味着什么，
I've literally just had a message back
我刚刚收到
from Al and she's agreed to meet with me
Al 的回信，她同意与我见面，
I just don't know what to expect it's
我只是不知道 不知道会发生什么，
really hard to know from a few
从网上的一些对话中很难知道
conversations online how immersed in
this world she is and how extreme her
她对这个世界的沉浸程度以及她的观点有多极端，
views are I think this is like a real
我认为这就像一个真正的
launch pad to like understand where to
发射台，让您了解下一步该去哪里，
go
next you describe yourself as a femel
您将自己描述为 femel
what does that mean to you Fel to me
这对你来说意味着什么 Fel 对我来说
just means someone who has you know gone
只是意味着你认识的某个人经历了
through enough life experiences with men
足够的与男人的生活经历，
to sort of have this like stain for them
对他们来说有点像污点，
and it shouldn't be an insult to us you
这不应该是对我们的侮辱，你
know we are inv voluntary celebr we do
知道我们是自愿的名人 我们确实
hold these radicalized uh feminist views
持有这些激进的呃女权主义观点，
so why not make a community out of it 3
所以为什么不在 3 年前创建一个社区，
years ago or so you would have been able
这样你就可以
to go on to Reddit and find communities
继续访问 Reddit 并找到
made purely just to post pictures of men
纯粹只是为了发布男人的照片
or to you know dox men or do anything
或你认识的 dox 男人或 做
like these to just basically ruin the
这样的事情基本上会毁了
lives of a man what are your views on
一个男人的生活，你对整个男人的看法是什么，
men as a whole then I don't hate them
那么我不讨厌他们，
particularly I constantly feel
特别是我经常感到受到
threatened especially in relationships I
威胁，尤其是在人际关系中，我
don't show emotions to them I don't you
不会向他们表达情感，我不喜欢
know get them the time of date so would
知道让他们知道约会的时间，所以
you describe yourself as involuntary
你会把自己描述为非自愿
celibate I'm not celibate nor
独身者吗？我不是独身者，也不
involuntarily and I suppose a lot of
是非自愿的，我想
people in the F Community who are
F 社区中很多
involuntary CIB would consider me a fake
非自愿 CIB 的人会认为我是一个假
cell which is someone who's just
细胞，
basically lying about being a part of
基本上是在撒谎的人 关于成为社区的一部分，
the community I just hold a lot of their
我只是对
views for incels it's the lack of sexual
非独身者持很多观点，缺乏性
and relationship experience that makes
和关系经验使
them an incel whereas for fem cells like
他们成为非独身者，而对于像ow这样的女性细胞来说，
ow it is the past experiences that make
是过去的经历让
them consider themselves fem cells it
他们认为自己是女性细胞
feels like ow found this online
感觉 就像 ow 发现了这个由
community of like-minded people who may
志同道合的人组成的在线社区，他们可能
have had similar
有类似的
experiences and that is her definition
经历，这就是她对
of a fem cell and I'm really interested
女性细胞的定义，我真的很有兴趣
in trying to find out whether that's the
尝试找出是否是
case across the board because it feels
全面的情况，因为感觉
like it's a lot more complex than just
就像是一个
being about sex this time I'm looking in
这一次我正在寻找
the most public online
最公开的在线
spaces so I set up a new Tik to account
空间，所以我在几天前建立了一个新的 Tik 帐户，
a few days ago and I've just been
并且我刚刚
engaging with content that I think is
接触了一些我认为
kind of linked to the fem cell aesthetic
与之相关的内容 女性细胞美学
or the fem cell community so it's a lot
或女性细胞社区，所以有很多
of stuff about eating disorders a lot of
关于饮食失调的内容，
like nihilistic mental health content
很像虚无主义的心理健康内容，
that talks about not wanting to get
谈论不想变得
better not being able to get better
更好，无法变得更好，感到
feeling very helpless it feels like it's
非常无助，感觉
way more about finding a space online to
更多的是关于 在网上寻找一个空间来
share feelings of loneliness and
分享孤独和
frustration than it is any kind of
沮丧的感觉，而不是任何一种
movement but I have seen a lot of
运动，但我看到很多
evidence of fem cells directing their
证据表明女性细胞将他们的
Ang
愤怒
and that sadness inwards and I want to
和悲伤向内引导，我想
understand where that's coming
了解这是
from hey Ellie I'm setting up a call
来自嘿艾莉的[音乐] 我正在
with a woman I've been speaking to in
与一位女士打电话，我一直在
one of the fem cell subreddits she
一个 fem cell subreddits 中与之交谈，她
doesn't actually identify as a fem cell
实际上并不认为自己是 fem cell，
but you need to hear what she's got to
但
say if I was to use the word Fel what
如果我要使用这个词，你需要听听她会说什么 感觉
would that mean to you there are
这对你来说意味着什么，
negative connotations with that word
这个词有负面含义，
because it's so in cell adjacent um and
因为它在相邻的细胞中是如此，
obviously in cells are associated with
显然在细胞中与
extremism violence misogyny that sort of
极端主义暴力厌女之类的
thing so for me it's hard to escape from
事情有关，所以对我来说很难摆脱这个
that negative um meaning of the word
词的负面含义
have you had any relationship experience
你有过任何恋爱经历吗？
I've never had a relationship
我从来没有谈过恋爱，
unfortunately I've never had any sort of
不幸的是，除了接吻之外，我从来没有过任何
experience past um a kiss but I do feel
经历，但我确实
shame about it cuz I'm 28 I feel like
为此感到羞耻，因为我已经 28 岁了，我觉得
I'm going to be 60 odd 70 and I'm just
我快要 60 岁了 70岁了，我
going to have lived my life alone and
将独自生活，
it's very it's scary and it's depressing
这非常可怕，令人沮丧
and isolating the thing that is wrong
和孤立，我的问题
with me is my facial appearance It's
是我的面部表情，这对
Tricky for me I don't want to be another
我来说很棘手，我不想成为另一个
person who you feel is dis missing your
你觉得的人 我很想念你的
feelings but it's hard for me to to look
感受，但我很难看着
at you because I just don't see you as
你，因为我根本不认为你没有
unattractive at all why do you think
吸引力，为什么你认为
it's that my body dismorphic disorder
这是我的身体变形障碍，
but also because of the fact that I've
而且还因为我
never seen anyone be attracted to me I
从未见过任何人 被我吸引 我
personally find myself very unattractive
个人发现自己很没有吸引力，
and I think that I just apply that to
我想我只是将这一点应用到
everyone else I get a lot of stairs get
其他人身上 我爬了很多楼梯，
a lot of people might smirk um things
很多人可能会傻笑，嗯
like that and I just think yeah it's
，我只是想，是的，这是
because of what my face looks like and
因为我的脸看起来 就像
when I go to these communities you see
当我去这些社区时，你会看到
lots of women who have experienced the
很多经历过
same thing it's nice in a way to have
同样事情的女性，这在某种程度上很好地
that validation that you're not crazy
验证了你没有疯，
that you're not wrong and that it
你没有错，而且它
actually does happen it's a place where
确实发生了，这是一个
I pretty pry much go every day just to
我每天都会去探寻，只是为了
read experiences and it makes me feel a
阅读经验，这让我感觉
little bit better because I feel less
好一点，因为我感觉不那么
alone the more women that I speak to in
孤独，在这些空间中与我交谈的女性越多，
these spaces the less worried I am about
我对
any kind of violence and the more
任何形式的暴力就越不担心，
worried I am about the women themselves
我就越担心 关于女性本身
and their mental health it feels like
和她们的心理健康，感觉女性
there's a real difference between the
way fem cell communities are dealing
细胞社区处理
with feelings of isolation and
孤立和
loneliness and the way the incel
孤独感的方式与非自愿独身者
communities are dealing with the same
社区处理相同
feelings I think I need to try and speak
感受的方式之间存在真正的区别，我想我需要尝试说出来
to someone with an insight into both
对那些对这两个世界都有洞察力的人
these worlds to understand it
可以
better so I found a pretty big fem Cel
更好地理解它，所以我找到了一位相当大的女性塞尔
influencer content creator who posts a
影响者内容创作者，她
lot on YouTube about her experience as a
在 YouTube 上发布了很多关于她作为
fem Cel her name is
女性塞尔的经历，
kidology when I reflect on why I haven't
当我反思为什么我没有这样做时，她的名字是儿童学
been in an intimate relationship it
一直处于亲密关系中，这
isn't because I am picky every man that
并不是因为我很挑剔，
I have shown interest in has not re
我所表现出的兴趣的每个男人都没有重新
deprecated my feelings the videos where
贬低我的感受，在
you speak about the femel community who
你谈论女性社区的视频中，他们最
tends to engage with that the most
倾向于参与其中，这
that's definitely a majority male
绝对是大多数男性
audience when I talk about sort of uh
观众 当我谈论某种呃，
especially insom when I talk about
特别是insom时，当我谈论
things about physical attractiveness
有关外表的身体吸引力时，
about looks that definitely does attract
肯定会吸引
uh men I think the algorithm has sort of
呃男人，我认为该算法在某种程度上将
associated me with those sort of topics
我与此类主题联系起来，
how do fem Sal and inell differ either
女性萨尔和伊内尔在哪些方面有所不同
in in their experiences or in their
online identities I would say that
我想说的是，
insults very much see the world as the
侮辱在很大程度上将世界视为
problems particularly modern society and
问题，特别是现代社会和
feminism and the ability for women to be
女权主义，以及女性
far more picky about their Partners
对她们的伴侣、与
about who they have sex with um about
谁发生性关系、以及与
who they form relationships with whereas
谁建立关系更加挑剔的能力 而
most fir C that I've sort of seen online
我在网上看到的大多数 C 型人
especially tend to see it as something
尤其倾向于将其视为
that that's wrong with them or something
他们的问题或
internal especially their looks and
内在的问题，尤其是他们的外表，
having low self-esteem low confidence
自尊心低，自信低，这
and that it's sort of something that
是
they have to work on in order to
他们必须努力解决的问题 为了
eventually find those
最终找到这些
relationships so F cell spaces might not
关系，所以 F 细胞空间可能不会
be particularly violent but I know that
特别暴力，但我知道
some fem cells are spending time in
一些 fem 细胞正在
online spaces with in cells and I wonder
与细胞内的在线空间一起度过，我想知道
what impact that might have Al has some
这可能会对 Al 访问
access to secret incel and fem cell
秘密 incel 和 fem 细胞产生什么影响
groups so I'm going to see if she can
所以我要看看她是否
get me into
能让我加入
them I'm on my way to meet Al again and
他们，我正在去见艾尔的路上，还有和她
another girl that she lives with who
住在一起的另一个女孩，她
also identifies as a fem cell I'm
也被认为是女性细胞，我
feeling quite nervous actually I've got
感到很紧张，实际上我已经
no idea what they're going to tell me or
不知道他们会告诉我什么，也不知道
what they're going to show
他们会向我展示什么，
me so what's the main things that You'
所以你在 F 社区中发现的主要内容是什么，
found about the F Community to me it
对我来说，它
seems like more of a kind of like space
似乎更像是一种
for women online it's deeply hidden in
女性在线空间，它被深深隐藏了
the way that you have to know someone in
你必须认识
a server or somewhere on the internet to
服务器中或互联网上某个地方的某人才能
do it they even think that you might be
做到这一点，他们甚至认为你可能是
a police officer or anything like that
一名警察或类似的人，
they'll immediately just kick you so you
他们会立即踢你，所以你
kind of have to almost blend in and to
必须几乎融入其中 为了
blend in you have to be a part of these
融入其中，你必须成为这些社区的一部分
communities for at least a year I'd love
至少一年，
to see some of the servers if you could
如果你能向
show me the ones that you're
我展示你
in servers like this they'll have a
在这样的服务器中的[音乐]，我很想看看一些服务器，他们将拥有 一个
channel and it will last 24 hours
频道，它将持续 24 小时，
everything will be deleted it be started
所有内容都会被删除，
again tomorrow morning and so it's hard
明天早上会再次启动，所以很难
to navigate which is why it's really
导航，这就是为什么
difficult to track there is like a lot
很难跟踪，有很多
of crude things like this obviously and
像这样的粗俗的事情，很明显，
in like sexualizing women and these
比如性感化女性等等
characters are supposed to be young
角色应该是年轻
girls this sort of humor spr around it's
女孩，这种幽默围绕着这是
a kids TV show and it's just the caption
一部儿童电视节目，它只是
of you know rape rape rape and that's
你知道强奸强奸强奸的标题，这
supposed to be absolutely hilarious
应该是绝对搞笑的，
你在其中一个中见过的最黑暗的事情是什么？ 我
seen in one of these I've been sent
收到了
videos of um women being and
一些女性被强奸的视频，
raped I mean how old were you were the
我的意思是，你
first time you saw something like that I
第一次看到类似的事情时多大了，我
would have been around
大概
14 uh youngest I'd seen Gore was
14 岁左右，呃，我见过戈尔最年轻的可能是
probably
11 there was a server that my housemate
11 岁，有一个服务器，我的室友
was in and the server was a very harsh
是 服务器是一个非常严厉
and psychotic server do you think she
和精神病的服务器，你认为她
could maybe show us I think she could
可以向我们展示吗？我想她可以，
yeah I think she'd be
是的，我想她会
willing it was this server that was
愿意，这台服务器被
advertised as like fam cells in cells
宣传为就像细胞中的家庭细胞，
only you know extreme Gore extreme views
只有你知道极端戈尔极端
do not enter if you're normal have you
如果你是正常人，那么观点就不会进入你
had any experiences in real life that
在现实生活中是否有过任何
you think have informed either you know
你认为已经告诉你的经历要么你
your opinion on men now or why you're in
现在知道你对男人的看法，要么你为什么在
these spaces online yeah I met a guy
网上这些空间是的，我在
online when I was pretty young actually
很年轻的时候在网上认识了一个男人 实际上
like sexually assaulted me basically
就像性侵犯我一样，基本上
it's happened three times to me I had a
这种事在我身上发生过三次，
similar relationship when I was 14 I
我14岁时也有过类似的关系，我
didn't know that me saying no and who
不知道我说不，谁
continued to do it was wrong at all it's
继续这样做根本就是错误的，这种事
happened multiple times in relationships
在人际关系中发生过多次，
multiple what's your experience large de
你的经历是什么
in like as part of this fza world seeing
作为这个fza世界的一部分，我看到了
like bad stuff like people killing
像人们自杀这样的坏事，
themselves seeing people getting bullied
看到人们被欺负，被人
getting doxed I don't enjoy it but at
肉搜索，我不喜欢它，但
that time I was so bored I was like well
当时我很无聊，我想
this is entertaining to me I OB say no
这对我来说很有趣，我OB说
no that was like [\h__\h] up and wrong but
不不，这就像搞砸了，错了，但
at the time I was depressed enough to be
当时我很沮丧，我
like well I'm killing myself anyway so
想反正我正在自杀所以
why
为什么
not what do you think the draw is for
不你认为
people to come back to that content over
人们一遍又一遍地回到这些内容的吸引力是什么？
and over again it's like a sickening
就像一种令人作呕的
addiction I think that a lot of people
上瘾，我认为很多人
really are struggling to get over it
确实在努力克服它，这
gives you like this sense of just being
让你有一种被
trapped and you can't go to your parents
困住的感觉，你不能去找你的父母
to talk about it because we've seen
谈论它，因为我们已经看到了
awful things you're going to be judged
你所经历的可怕的事情 会被评判
you said awful things fundamentally
你说了可怕的话 从根本上来说
you're lonely you feel isolated you
你很孤独 你感到孤立 你
can't talk to your family you can't talk
无法与家人交谈 你无法
to your
与你的
teacher how much of a contribut in
老师交谈 我们所看到的一些暴力行为实际上有多少贡献
facted in some of the violence that
we've seen in the incel community that
incel 社区，
desensitization to violence
对暴力
desensitization is like a huge thing you
脱敏就像一件大事，你确实
do see it and you're like hm interesting
看到了它，你就像嗯，有趣，
you move on you see another thing you
你继续前进，你看到另一件事，你
you move on after years and years on the
在互联网上年复一年后继续前进，
internet you just you cope almost it is
你只是你应付几乎它是
desensitization it feels to me like what
脱敏 在我看来，
I've seen so far in cells has the danger
到目前为止我在细胞中看到的东西有可能
of spilling out into violent act against
蔓延成针对
other people and it feels like the most
其他人的暴力行为，而且感觉
violent things we're seeing in the fem
我们在女性细胞社区中看到的最暴力的事情
cell Community are affecting fem cells
正在影响女性细胞
men are Tau it's kind of fine for you to
男性是Tau 对你来说，
lash out on other people whereas women
攻击别人是很好的事，而女人
well constantly well it's your fault I'm
总是这样，这是你的错，我为此
blaming you for it women will blame
责备你，女人会为此责备
themselves for it like I said these
自己，就像我说的，这些
people RI basted bullied disown by their
人被RI殴打，被
own families and Society does teach
自己的家人欺负，社会确实教导我们
these women it's your fault it's your
这些女人，这是你的错，这是你的
fault these things happen to you and
错，这些事情发生在你身上，这对
that makes the most radical fem cells to
me although them cells inels have the
我来说是最激进的女性细胞，尽管这些细胞与
similarity of anxiety depression bad
焦虑、抑郁、糟糕的
lives how it's self internalized from
生活有相似之处，但它的自我内化程度与
like what we teach is like a huge
我们所教的内容有很大
difference how much danger do you think
不同 你认为
there is that we could see a woman
我们可能会看到一个女人
end up as violent as someone like Elliot
最终像这个社区的埃利奥特·罗杰这样的人一样暴力，
Roger from this community um I do think
嗯，我确实认为
there is potential for like a real
有可能发生真正的
violent act I think we will get there
暴力行为，我想我们会到达那里，
and the world will go oh my God how did
世界将会消失哦 我的天哪，
how did she do that and I actually don't
她是怎么做到的，我实际上不
think it proves anything like
认为这证明了任何事情，
specifically like oh my God women can do
就像天哪，女人也可以做到
this too I wouldn't say it like that I'd
这一点，我不会这样说，我会
say like well you let intels do it you
说，好吧，你让英特尔来做你 你
know you let this happen you let men get
知道你让这种事发生 你让男人得了
mentally ill you know you didn't let men
精神疾病 你知道你没有让男人
Express their emotions you didn't get
表达他们的情绪 你没有让
them the mental health they needed and
他们得到他们需要的心理健康
then they shot a place off and I you
然后他们就开枪了 我你
know women are getting more mentally ill
知道女人的精神疾病越来越严重
I think something like that will happen
我认为类似的事情会
in a couple years and the world will be
在几年内发生，世界将会
shocked and we'll go oh my God like how
震惊，我们会天哪，
could this happen but I expect it to be
这怎么可能发生，但我希望说
honest you got that dread still or you
实话，你仍然有那种恐惧，或者你
got anything that you can show me from
有任何可以展示的东西 我从那以后，
that I don't have that specifically that
我没有具体说，
I do have some content from there oh my
我确实有一些来自那里的内容哦，
God this was something that multiple
天哪，这是多
people did in the server like I can't
个人在服务器中所做的事情，就像我看不到，
watch that I know it's it's hard to see
我知道这很难看到，
but as a group maybe four or five people
但作为一个团体也许 有四五个人
did this specifically can you describe
具体做了这个，你能描述一下
what's happening so they're cutting a
发生了什么吗？他们正在切一个
square that's her eating it you know
正方形，那是她吃的，你知道
they're bleeding she's smiling like
他们在流血，她微笑着，这对
that's funny for her and she's like
她来说很有趣，她就像在
commentating this she's even edited this
评论这个，她甚至顺便编辑了这个
video by the way to show her like 5
视频 给她展示
minutes of her eating her own flesh like
她吃自己肉的 5 分钟，就像
can't can't do this yeah that one's
不能做这个，是的，那个人
[\h__\h] crazy or like for
太疯狂了，或者喜欢
advertisement you know stuff like that
广告，你知道类似的东西，那是
what is that um basically this girl she
什么，基本上这个女孩，她
joins the VC she
加入了 VC，她
[\h__\h] cuts herself she does like
他妈的割伤了自己，她 确实喜欢
sexual acts on camera we don't even know
镜头前的性行为，我们甚至不知道
who this person
这个人是谁，
is I know it is a lot genuinely I
我知道这很真实，我
actually find it so upsetting I think I
实际上觉得它很令人不安，我想我
like I don't think I expect it to be um
喜欢我不认为我期望它会是，嗯，这甚至
it is like quite moving even for me
很感人 对我
looking back at this s considering amot
来说，回顾这件事，我考虑了很多，我想我他妈的
I'm like what the [\h__\h] how did I
tolerate that on the
每天怎么忍受这种事是的，
daily yeah I actually I can't I can't oh
我实际上不能，我不能哦，我
do want me look yeah B just had to dip
想让我看看，是的，B只是不得不
out of the room because I was not
从房间里出来 因为我没
expecting to see
想到会看到
anything quite like that um that's
类似的东西，嗯，这
really really shocked me I'm not sure
真的让我感到震惊，我不确定
that I can watch any more of that
我是否可以再观看这些
content I think that's probably going to
内容，我认为今晚可能已经
have to be enough for
足够了，
tonight so I came into this thinking
所以我开始思考
that I was trying to investigate what a
我试图研究什么
fem cell is and what that Community is
是女性细胞、那个社区是什么
and what it means I almost think that
以及它意味着什么，我几乎认为
the word kind of doesn't matter and it's
这个词并不重要，它
it's so much broader than just this like
比
idea of a fem cell because everyone I
女性细胞的概念要广泛得多，因为我遇到的每个人
meet feels quite different and they
感觉很不同，他们
inhabit sort of different spaces online
居住在不同的在线空间，
but the
overarching thing that's connecting them
I think is loneliness and I think that's
我认为连接他们的最重要的事情是孤独，我认为这就是
what draws them to these online spaces
吸引他们来到这些在线空间的原因，
and I think that that is the initial
我认为这是最初的
feeling that then
感觉，然后
creates
产生
resentment and and extreme cases hatred
怨恨和极端情况 仇恨
and anger
、愤怒
ow and Anthrax when they were deep deep
和炭疽当他们深入
in those servers the things they were
这些服务器时他们
telling me the things they were showing
告诉我的事情他们向我展示的事情
me it didn't feel very different at all
to the things I've seen in incel forums
与我在非自愿独身者论坛中看到的事情没有太大不同
the real danger here is danger to the
这里真正的危险是 对
women in no service they are incredibly
没有任何服务的女性来说是危险的，她们非常
vulnerable and I think that is what's
脆弱，我认为这才是
really really
真正
scary
可怕的地方
for